The fear is taking over.

I’ve drunk a bit but meh. Who cares? haha
I feel like I may as well start blogging like everyone else does. Complaining about life.

Lately I’ve been feeling down thinking about the future. I’m going to miss my friends so much :/ I’ve only really got to know my closest friends in the past 3 years or so and I don’t want to let them go. If I go to Uni or not, most of my closest friends are and I just don’t wanna say goodbye to them :/ Even if it may not be the last time I see them, the thought is still there.

If I go to where I wish to go for uni (Although I’m most likely never going to get the grades) I’ll be with one of them. Which I’m fine with because it’s better than nothing but I’m still missing some of the other people that matter the most to me. If I stay at home I have 2 or 3 which is better but isn’t the full group of people that make me happy and I’ll still feel like something is missing.

Growing up is bullshit. 

Also plans for later life is hard. I just want to stick with music. But camera work and editing is a fun past time so I’d love to stick with it as a job. At the moment life can go either way. I just wish it’s one of them two. Fuck being a bar man :’)

ANYWAY. Now to go watch Hulk as I wish to watch the ‘Avengers’ films before watching ‘Avengers Assemble’ :P 

Sorry for wasting your time. Love you :’)